Merry Christmas!

Twas the night before Christmas & all through the house,
All the Creatures were stirring & screaming & shout.
Pretty much theres my house right now. My sister is repeatidly coming in my room asking to borrow stuff, parents in the living watching tv and my dog trying to lick my leg all the time, which I’m not sure why.
As i sit here watching The Polar Express & waiting till Christmas day arrives, i am having a bit of a reflective moment. This year has been very different from what i expected. There has been many broken promises, lies, & deception. There was many days where i wish i could just crawl into a hole and never come out. There was many a day where i just felt defeated and done with life. But throughout all those tears and extremities there was many illuminate days of smiles, laughter, & jubilant’s. My body is filled with warmth when i think about all the happiness i had experienced this year. The many laughs i experienced with so many of my friends. The randomness of hangouts, the new and exciting adventures. Thinking over this year, it has been a good one. As long as i spend my years with the ones i love & who love me back they will be good years.

I wish my family was like those on the screen. Where Uncles & Aunts, Cousins & Grandparents head over to one house and celebrate Christmas together. I want all the disagreements, laughs, and boringness of it all. Even though it is only those who live at my house (Grandpa, Mom, Dad, Sister & Snoopy) We still have a fun moments, especially our disagreements and boringness moments as well. It’s just not… tv or movie style. I already know i got a wii, my sister and i snoop around during christmas time. so wii parties is a must after the holiday season. I never thought of something i really wanted besides my wii this christmas. I feel content with what i have and whatever my parents get me is perfectly fine with me.

My doggy Rosie died on Saturday, 12-22-07. At first when my sister called me i wasn’t that torn up, partially because i was out and i didn’t want to be sad. But as i was just sitting next to my boyfriend i began to tear up thinking about her. I miss that little dog. She had the funniest look, she was a tiny little Cavalier King Charles Spaniel had a extra long tounge so she always had it sticking out of her mouth just hanging there. & her poor little eye was all black cause when she was a puppy she poked it. Even the car ride home i was balling just thinking about her. i miss her so much. She never could jump up on chairs so you’d have to pick her up to put her on one. She never barked or whined, she was always hungry though. I am thankful for the time god gave us with her. I am also thankful her death was a peaceful one, my dad said she didn’t feel anything, i just feel horrible that it was alone, while both me and my sister were gone. Wow, even now this still tears me up. I miss her a lot.

Well everyone God Bless, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, & Happy New Year.
I love you all. Be careful
<3

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